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...but then I realised that no matter what, announcing who you are to the world is pretty terrifying cause what if the world doesn't like you. So, I did whatever I could to keep my secret. I hurt the best, most important people and I want them to know that I'm sorry. I am done being scared. I'm done living in a world where I don't get to be who I am. 

Self Journey

Carreer break. Sabbatical . Those words have been weighing on my mind for more than one year now. Berawal dari quarter-life crisis dan depresi. Gw ngajuin resign dari divisi accounting saat itu. Ujungnya dapat sedikit pencerahan sih, sedikit sadar, mungkin keputusan gw kurang tepat. Gw-pun mencoba ngebuka peluang baru dan terima tawaran untuk pindah divisi. More challenging, ceunah. More things to learn, technically and emotionally. Saat itu gw berpikir, this is one way to go out of my comfort zone, little by little. Gw ga jadi resign. Sempet heboh tuh, "gw ditawarin", jawaban gw tiap ada yang nanya. Ga boong, kan emank ditawarin. Beberapa bulan pertama masih semangat. Gw berusaha menjadi diri gw yang terbaik, gw belajar dengan cepat, adaptasi secepat mungkin yang gw bisa. All in the middle of fighting my depression. Beberapa bulan berikutnya gw ditampar, dibilang gw belum kompeten dan belum bisa show my self as a leader . Baper pasti, ditambah lagi sifat